So , is the season over ? New years eve is in a few days , and everyone is running around , trying to find the best party , trying to find a place where they can spend $200.00 to get drunk and act like idiots. "Amateur night for drunks" is what I always call it. Hey , I've been drunk plenty , and I've stayed up all night plenty , so what's the big deal? Why do people have to act like fools just one night getting wasted? Oh , I forgot , some do that almost every day. Well drinking is alright , as I've had my share , and some times it was fun , but mostly it was sad and depressing. You can't really experience things when you are drunk . It just puts a weird face on everything. I'm generally a shy , quiet person , but put a few drinks in me under the right circumstances , and I can become almost the life of the party. Not that I always remember what I did the night before , and I'm not proud of my drunken exploits , I don't like people who go "you know last night I was sooo drunk , it was such a good time! ....... Well , like I said , I've had some good times drunk , but mostly bad and sad times. I'm tired of hanging around dank , smokey bars , trying to talk to inebriated woman , trying to get them interested in me , which I 've had some success at. But it just feels wrong , as if being drunk makes it easier , or something. Then you wake up the next day , feeling like crap , wondering just what the hell you drank, and why you're with so and so . No , it's never been that bad , but if you need a few drinks to feel comfortable with people , maybe drinking is just one of your problems.
Don't mean to moralize , but I've sort of had a drinking problem for many years , probably starting when I was 18 and working at summercamp in Wisconsin, where beer was the state beverage , and they still served 18 yr olds. Well, it was a teenagers dream, and I was drunk every night , which was not a good thing , 'cause I was supposed to look after a bunch of kids as a camp counselor. Yeah , I was a good icon for those kids , "hey look at drunky , he's our counselor" . No it wasn't that bad , but it didn't make it easy in that miserable summer . I guess drinking made it a little more bearable , 'cause I was miserable . Than a few years later , I had the pleasure of working retail dowmtown Chicago , with a bunch of serious alcoholics. It was a very stressful job , and every night , after work , we'd sit in the store , with the doors locked , and have a sixpack , or a twelve pack, then hit the bars for a few hours , usually getting home in a drunken stupor , then getting up the next day , and doing it all over again . This went on for at least five years, and some of those people I used to work with are probably dead by now , 'cause they probably never slowed down. I hope I never drink like that again , and after passing out on the bathroom floor and waking up , wondering how I got there after a particularly big drinking night , actually , I had had at least 8 of those large weiss beers , you know , the sixteen ounce kind , from Germany, and , me being a kind of thin guy , well , I can't really hold my liquor. But , you know , no one can really hold thier liquor , and I don't care how macho you make it seem , pissing on an el platform at three am 'cause that's what beer makes you do , is never fun or romantic , or macho or anything, but kinda awful. So if drinking makes you a "big man" , then again , you're really very small minded, and you may be an abusive , nasty person , with lots and lots of emotional stuff going on. Sorry , didn't mean to bring you down ,so HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
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