On another topic...

Oh , what was I saying? I was trying to post last night and it got erased. Hmm... musta been the govment trying to censor me . Can they do that ? Not yet....Stay tuned. So , anyway I was saying , What is the deal with people who say they are anti abortion or "pro life" supporting the policies of one gw bush ? It's a contradiction of enormous consequences. Does anyone see the hypocrisy in this flawed judgment? I mean , Saddam is not a good guy by any means. And maybe taking him out of power was not a bad thing. But he was killing his own people during the reign of g bush the first with his blessing , because Iraq was in a war with the other "evil hordes" , Iran. It's a policy of "he may be a son of a bitch , but he's our son of a bitch" , as one richard nixon was known to say. I mean, Saddam had weapons of mass destruction , because our govment sold them to him.
So , anyway , the "pro life" folks want to stop abortions across the board , 'cause they are soo concerned with the life of the unborn. Well , folks , here is their policy and whacked out logic in a nutshell. They are out and out racists and they want to keep the white folks as the dominant race in this country. How do I come to this conclusion? Look at the "pro life" crowd. You got one Jerry Falwell, you got Pat "lets knock off Hugo Chavez" Robertson, and a bunch of other religious fascists , proclaiming their virtue , while calling for the banning of books , the locking up of gays , and making everyone into a Christian , to fit their warped little mindsets. They say they want to democratise Iraq , while really all they want is to control the oil, and , if they can, they want to turn the "evil" Muslims into "good Christians". Have I been listening to Air America radio too much , maybe , but I'd rather listen to that than CNN or fox news , while they cheer on the "president" and his whacked out view of the world.
So , abortion . The "pro life" forces do not want anyone to have an abortion , because of the numbers. They know that poor black folks and poor latinos have less abortions than middle class white folks. Therefore , in about ten years or so , the population of blacks and latinos will probably surpass that of white folks . So , if they ban abortions of all people , the white folks can remain the dominant population . See, they don't want the black and latino population to increase , as witnessed by the recent non actions taken during hurricane Katrina in new Orleans., causing the deaths of countless black people. If they were sooo "pro life" wouldn't they have put more of an effort in saving the people of New Orleans ? Yeah , I know , people shouldn't rely on the govment so much , but , guess what ? When the hurricanes hit Florida , they happened to hit the wealthier , white sections of Florida , and you better believe they got more service from the good folks at fema!
So , I don't know what's coming for the new year , but HAPPY NEW YEAR , anyway!!!!

new years revolutions

So , is the season over ? New years eve is in a few days , and everyone is running around , trying to find the best party , trying to find a place where they can spend $200.00 to get drunk and act like idiots. "Amateur night for drunks" is what I always call it. Hey , I've been drunk plenty , and I've stayed up all night plenty , so what's the big deal? Why do people have to act like fools just one night getting wasted? Oh , I forgot , some do that almost every day. Well drinking is alright , as I've had my share , and some times it was fun , but mostly it was sad and depressing. You can't really experience things when you are drunk . It just puts a weird face on everything. I'm generally a shy , quiet person , but put a few drinks in me under the right circumstances , and I can become almost the life of the party. Not that I always remember what I did the night before , and I'm not proud of my drunken exploits , I don't like people who go "you know last night I was sooo drunk , it was such a good time! ....... Well , like I said , I've had some good times drunk , but mostly bad and sad times. I'm tired of hanging around dank , smokey bars , trying to talk to inebriated woman , trying to get them interested in me , which I 've had some success at. But it just feels wrong , as if being drunk makes it easier , or something. Then you wake up the next day , feeling like crap , wondering just what the hell you drank, and why you're with so and so . No , it's never been that bad , but if you need a few drinks to feel comfortable with people , maybe drinking is just one of your problems.
Don't mean to moralize , but I've sort of had a drinking problem for many years , probably starting when I was 18 and working at summercamp in Wisconsin, where beer was the state beverage , and they still served 18 yr olds. Well, it was a teenagers dream, and I was drunk every night , which was not a good thing , 'cause I was supposed to look after a bunch of kids as a camp counselor. Yeah , I was a good icon for those kids , "hey look at drunky , he's our counselor" . No it wasn't that bad , but it didn't make it easy in that miserable summer . I guess drinking made it a little more bearable , 'cause I was miserable . Than a few years later , I had the pleasure of working retail dowmtown Chicago , with a bunch of serious alcoholics. It was a very stressful job , and every night , after work , we'd sit in the store , with the doors locked , and have a sixpack , or a twelve pack, then hit the bars for a few hours , usually getting home in a drunken stupor , then getting up the next day , and doing it all over again . This went on for at least five years, and some of those people I used to work with are probably dead by now , 'cause they probably never slowed down. I hope I never drink like that again , and after passing out on the bathroom floor and waking up , wondering how I got there after a particularly big drinking night , actually , I had had at least 8 of those large weiss beers , you know , the sixteen ounce kind , from Germany, and , me being a kind of thin guy , well , I can't really hold my liquor. But , you know , no one can really hold thier liquor , and I don't care how macho you make it seem , pissing on an el platform at three am 'cause that's what beer makes you do , is never fun or romantic , or macho or anything, but kinda awful. So if drinking makes you a "big man" , then again , you're really very small minded, and you may be an abusive , nasty person , with lots and lots of emotional stuff going on. Sorry , didn't mean to bring you down ,so HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Coming - return season!

Yes , folks, it's return season , time for all of us to return all the crap we pretend to like , such as the ugly sweater Aunt Sadie gave us , when we said , "Oh Sadie , it's gorgeous", or , of course , who could forget the countless times that good old uncle Nathan , "uncle nose" , as we used to call him, gave us bingo sets for Hanukkah , every year for at least five years ( yes that story is true , Aunt Sadie is not. I don't have an Aunt Sadie) We didn't , however , return the bingo sets , just looked at them and said , "what's that all about?" We never did figure out why he gave us bingo sets , but he gave us them a lot . Maybe he liked bingo , and wanted to share the joy of bingo with us. Maybe he wanted us to open a bingo parlor, I don't know . Relatives are strange , but I don't have to tell you . Any hoo, it's return season , 'cause the economy runs on Chankwanamas presents. It relies on a BIGGG Christhaunakwans buying season to boost the sagging economy, to make it artificially look like it's good , while really , it kinda sucks , what with GM and Ford laying off some 60,000 people in the next five years. Yeah, the economy is fine. Just ask the Haliburton stockholders! They're doing just fine , thank you. It's a "faith based economy" , just prey for money and it'll come to you! So , go to wally mart and get really good prices on crap made in sweatshops by people who try and live on $2,ooo dollars a year , while they could never even afford to buy the stuff they make every day , and to save any money for presents takes them about six months.
But , really , what are the holidays all about? Peace on earth? The birth of Christ? A time in Jewish history , when they didn't have enough oil for the lamps and magically made the oil last eight days , so that we can eat fried potato pancakes and donuts as a symbol of that oil? The kwanza symbols , just recently developed to resemble an ancient African tradition?
Well, folks , here in America, it just means buy , buy , buy! And buy some more, 'cause the economy don't look so good! Well, my mom sent be a big box of mixed nuts, which is nice , but I was expecting something more . I , of course , didn't get anyone anything , as yet. It's part of my fear of spending money I'm afraid I don't have , even though I have some . I just get afraid that if I spend some , I'll spend it all. Irrational as that may seem , it's a fear I have. So buy , buy buy , people ! The money you spend may be your own.
So of course I was expecting more . All the ads on TV have brainwashed me to expect more . Alright , I don't expect a lot , just a new Cadillac el Dorado coupe de ville, if you please . Wait , I don't even like gaudy , self indulgent cars. So, it's another Christhanukwanzmas gone by , and all I got was this lousy t - shirt!!!

The passion - Hanukwansmas 2005

I'm listening to Peter Gabriels "passion" , the soundtrack for "the Passion of the Christ" , on this , Christmas or "Hanukwansamas" , as I am calling it this year. I didn't read much of the bible , as I believe too many people have died in the name of "my religion is better than yours" , and "your religion doesn't count" , and that sort of thing, and, as the war in Iraq still goes on , there are folks that want to change the " Muslim hordes" into "good god fearing Christians" , and you know who these people are. Aren't all religions in search of mans' origins , and aren't all religions for peace on earth? Or, are we all going to die in a fit of hellfire and brimstone , and the "true believers" are going to heaven , and the rest of us going to burn in hell? After the horrors of the world trade center attacks , there were people saying that the Islamic extremists who allegedly masterminded the attacks and who flew the planes into the buildings were to be greeted by 100 virgins in heaven , and the other non believer " infidels " were going to that fiery place of desolation and awfulness. I guess it's all a matter of perspective , as the other side will say that those who flew the planes and died went straight to Hades to burn , while the good people who died in the ruins , went straight to heaven, maybe not to meet 100 virgins , but to be in peace. Hey , whets the deal with 100 virgins? As some comedian said , I ' d rather be with 100 woman who've had some sex than 100 virgins , at least they'd know what to do , but , I guess the fundamentalists among us like to put woman way atop the pedestal and treat them as their slaves , but that's another topic for another time.
I find that fundamentalist religions of whatever stripe to be abhorrent , be them Jewish Hasidim or Baptist Christians or Islamic fundies, the whole "my religion is better than yours" thing is disgusting to me. I mean , sure , Israel is the Jewish state , but , hey guess what , there are Palestinians living there too , and , as much as you don't want to recognize them , you can't kill them all off. And , hey you Islamic fundies , the Jews have just as much right to live there, too.
So why does it go on . I mean, there has been war in Israel since its founding in 1948 , and sometimes I think the only reason this government supports the state of Israel is because they buy massive amounts of weapons from us. I mean , after all, this war has been going on for more than FIFTY YEARS! Fifty years to defend an area the size of Rhode Island. And after 50 years and gazillions of dollars , what have we got? A promise of peace , a walled Israel to keep the "Palestinian hordes" out of the "true Israel" , and more war and bombings. After the holocaust in Europe in WWII ( the big one) , the state of Israel was founded . And now , 50 years after the Jews were rounded up in Poland , Germany , and other places , they still round up Palestinians, treating them not so differently as the Germans treated them. So it just goes on and on. And I'm tired of the arguments that go nowhere from the hasids saying they're different than the "terrorists". As far as I'm concerned , they are also terrorists. There methods may be different , and more sophisticated , but the end result is the same. People die , and it doesn't matter whether they be Jews or Muslims , or whatever. You can run , but you can't hide.
On that happy note, I'll just say
Happy Hanukwansmas!!!

happy hanukwansmas

yeah , I know , someone had the idea before me . I just saw another blog with a different version of a similar theme. Well since all three holidays are falling at almost the same time , they should just combine them all . I mean aren't we all wishing for peace on earth? Well, maybe not all of us . There are some who just want a "piece" of the earth for thier own profit and gain , never really thinking of anyone else. The repugs , for example. Will someone please tell these thuggish thieves that "1984" is not an example of how to run the government? At any rate, I am talking about the "war " on christmas, some idea that bill o riely of the faux network has tried to brainwash average "red state " americans with , just to take thier minds off of the real news stories like carl rove being indicted , george the "war president" spying on average folks under the guise of "homeland security", etc.
And in my job as a telephone researcher, I call up business owners of large and small companies and confirm data for a catalog of manufactures in many states. Well , the other day , as I was doing my regular job , at the end of my brief communications with these companies , I casually say , "have a nice holiday", just so I'll cover all the bases. Well , I wished one pleasent small business owner in the state of Washington to "have a nice holiday " and he says, "It's MERRY CHRISTMAS", like he was insulted and had been watching too much bill o'reily. Yeah , you white christian males sure have it bad ! You've been running the show for how long , and suddenly , there's the jews and the blacks and the muslims and the hindus , forcing us to acknowedge thier heritage , too and , of course , being the bullies that you are , you just can't share! So, it's the "war on Christmas , making people remove thier "Jesus in a manger " scenes on public lawns like public schools , libraries , and government buildings , as if that were some sort of a crime . Hey , equil time , I say , I mean isn't that what America is supposed to stand for ? No persecution of whatever religious beliefs you have? Oh , yeah , I forgot, we have a "christian" president, whatever the hell that means. So , happy holidays , for those not insulted by that phrase!

It's been a while....

Yeah , I know , "why don't you write more , it'l get all that stuff out of your head! If I've said it once , I've said it a hundred times to myself. Well, I guess there's a lot on my mind , with the "president" breaking the law and all , and acting like he really doesn't care , and it's been so damned cold! But , actually , right now , we're in a thawing period.
Anyhow , what was I thinking about ? Oh , yeah, the environment. Yeah , that old thing. What , there's too much mercury in fish, caused by toxins in our air and water? It seems that all those pollutants we constantly are putting into our air and water have a down side. What, you say , I thought we could just drive all we wanted , and run the factories on coal and put as much hydrocarbons into the air as we wanted without any regard to what would happen to it. I thought we could dump as much toxic sludge into the water as we wanted , 'cause we can make more money in the short term. I thought we could make as much money off the suffering of others without any regard to how it affects anyone.
Isn't that what drives big business? So now there are tremedous levels of mercury in fish. Aren't there tremendous levels of mercury in chicken , beef and pork , too?
Isn't the mercury in fish the result of all the hydrocarbans in the pollution mixing with the oxygen , thus causing mercury levels to skyrocket? Has anyone measured the levels of mercury in animal products? No , probably not. I mean , according to the Chicago Trib article from last Sunday , they haven't really tested for mercury in fish for quite some time , and they weren't that thorough to begin with. I mean , I've got mercury in my fillings , and the Ada sanctioned dentists say it's alright , because it's in such low levels , that it won't affect you. Then, there are the alternative dentists that say any level of mercury will affect you and it can never fully leave your system. Confusing? Double messages? Yeah, that's what America is all about , the double ( and sometimes triple) message. Abortion , no good . War , good. Sex , no good. Pornography , good. Greed , good . Poor people getting ahead , no good , and on and on. I guess if you worry about this stuff too much , it can drive you crazy. But someone should be worried about it. Lots of people are sick from lots of toxic stuff in the environment and no one seems to want to take responsibility for it. "It's too expensive to clean up" I don't like regulations" I don't like big government" Hey ' you asses , all the money you're making right now as a result of your short sighted , "lets have no regulations" policies won't help you in ten years , when you have to wear oxygen tanks 'cause it'll be the only way to breathe without suffocating on all the toxic particulates in the air. And we won't be producing nearly as much if half the population has died from all the pollution. So , guess what . The air and water have to improve for you to continue to exist. Got that ? No , you're only thinking about the next six months , just as you've been doing for the last twenty five years. Hey , we can't just keep producing more and more stuff. There are effects of our actions. Plastic doesn't just go away. Toxins in the air and water don't just flush away for someone else to deal with. We're all living in the same toxic soup.
Marry x mas ? Happy chaunakah ? Oh , well , I had to cleanse my system . Do I feel better? No , my neck hurts from sitting at the computer too long. Work out tomorrow! Yeah!