ya know , summer is here it's hott!! There , turned on the fan , that's better. Time to put all that working out in the winter, getting in shape action to good use. I love riding a loong way on a bicycle . It makes me take my mind off all my troubles . Besides , it's good for you. Ya know , if the "y " wanted to save a lot of money on electricity and be environmentally sound , they could hook up all their machines to a generator . Just think of all the electricity they could generate. Com ed would be hurtin' . Just thinkin' out loud. Ya know , it's weeks later , still kinda hot , but , I'm tired. tired of all the mediocrity passing for art. Tired of all the gossip passing for news. Tired of all the hypocrisy passing for truth. Tired of all the stupidity passing for comedy. Tired of all the "beautiful music " passing for jazz. It's all about marketing , all about advertising , all about product placement. I guess you have to create your own little universe , and then , maybe the stuff you think is mediocre doesn't matter. I get sooo tired of people complaining about EVERYTHING, and nothing changing . I guess you have to keep moving and not get stagnant, then you are too busy to complain . Sometimes , I don't know why I'm living in this particular time in history, the world is going to hell in a handbasket , and I'm supposed to be able to keep going on with my life , as if everything is alright. I can't do it , it doesn't work that way. I cant keep feeling numb , feeling dead , like I'm just waiting for something to happen . I don't know what to do . It's as if time passes for other people , and it's just standing still for me. But , now , it's at least two weeks later , and really hottt! Luckily , the place I'm living in has central air. What an invention. I remember the days when I had no a/c , 1995 , hottest freakin' summer in my recent memory. About 500 people died in the heat in that Chicago summer. It was over 90 degrees for at least three weeks . I haven't seen the Al gore movie " An Inconvenient Truth", I may , I may not . Life can be scary and depressing enough with out a reminder of just how bad it really is and how bad it may get. I don't want to be around if things get that bad. It could get better , but I don't know. It's going to rain soon , steam will be coming off the hot sidewalks like a big sauna . I got off an air conditioned bus the other day and the heat smacked me in the face and my glasses steamed up from the heat . Just the opposite of what happens in the winter, when you walk into a warm place from the cold outside world. Well , let's hope the generators don't blow from all the a/c s going at once.